READY...OK!!!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009 at 7/28/2009 08:39:00 PM
HELLO2!!...wah excited sungguh i arini..dia morng woke up late..x de mood gle nk g math..so x pg....tp x pe didnt miss anythg pn..i pakai tshrt n slacks je arini..haih...tp yg best..td ada bdak cute tolong amekkn pencil i yg jatuh..hehe..today kn adik2...1st time i g cheerleading prctce!!...seronok n menarik..ini sume gara2 support izza fadzlani n iza syafiqah...tq so much to both of u...ada la chance nk kurus cepat sket hehe...ni br balik prctce ni..terus tulis blog..excited sgt hahahha... XD

my current obsession.

Monday, July 27, 2009 at 7/27/2009 07:46:00 PM




its been a few days since i x tulis blog..sorry..

dat day(x igt bile)..i discovered a new website..bukan redtube! i tu da lama tau da..haha..i found LOOKBOOK.nu..its like facebook..tp only meant for those yg really interesred in fashion..sumpah menarik nk mati!!..i immediately fell inlove with street fashion..cantik2 belaka..most of em are major in arts..no wonder la..tp the outfits mmg cun2..im so into VINTAGE dis days..just hope i got money to shop je..dat's wat's stopping me nw..haih...

hehe my second current obsession is....ALI!!! huhu..mmg leh angau..know who ali is?? Ali ialah karikatur dlm cte KAMI..he's tall..big haired..sensitive..funny..and of course good looking..tau x pe??? ada dis one guy sibijik cm Ali..and he's in my electrncs lecture..huahua..dia pnah ckp hi kat i..tp..i ws walking fast so x pndng or respond lgsg...my lost..huu....

i dont knw

Friday, July 24, 2009 at 7/24/2009 05:10:00 AM
its 5 am..and i cnt sleep..i knw i shud be studying..but i cudnt stare at the book too long..i dun knw y..my past haunts me..i dunt knw how to describe dis..but im crying my heart out rite nw..am i scared? am i afraid? of wat?? moving on...or just the fact that im alone nw?..everything has a reason and explanation..but on my side of the story..u just dont hv one...


Mengapa pedih yg kurasa
Bila semua ku ada
Mengapa mengalir air mata
Bila tiada sebab untuknya
Mengapa hilang semuanya
Disaat ku mempercaya
Mengapa wujud cerita
Walau tidak ku karang
Mengapa ada perasaan
Walau ku tak rancang
Mengapa menunggu
Bila ia takkan datang
Mungkin ku sudah hanyut
Dengan cerita si pari2
Maaf
Silap ku mengikuti.....

DO NOT STUDY LAST MINUTE!

Thursday, July 23, 2009 at 7/23/2009 05:41:00 PM
haih.....mlm ni ada Quiz ENGINE MATH!! aku cuak gler seyh..gosh..its like my brain is still zero! mak aih..ptg td i sent a msg to ayah

"ayah, find me a calon skg gk! i want to get married! =(''

hehe..less then 10 seconds after dat ayah called..dia pn mmbebel la pasal, hw i can do it but i underestimate myself too much..bla..bla..bla..i cm..actually my dad is quite predictable..u'll knw wat he's gonna say..boleh je if i nk save d credit and repeat his words in my version td..but having ayah to call me and worry bout me and tell me hw he believes in me, is just.....PRICELESS!..its a guilty pleasure that i like to commit..huhu..my bad ;p

Weekend

Monday, July 20, 2009 at 7/20/2009 04:29:00 PM




weee....! last sat i went bck to KL..to celebrate Nik Afif's n Ainuddin Faiz's bday..afif's is on d 19th n ainud's is on d 26th..we decided to celebrate earlier before mereka smbg studies..huu~..dat saturday..Afif voluntarily belanja us tickets for HARRY POTTER and lunch at SECRET RECIPE..wah! best sgt2..it was just d three of us..geng petro yg slalu balik sama XD..we watched muvie kat PAVILLION n lunch at TIME SQUARE..i bought a solar powered plastic plant for them..comel sgt..huu..ptg tu..they decided to head to PELITA nk tgk MU lwn Malaysia..i x ske bola sgt..so i balik umah..

dat nite..i ajar ibu buat blog dia sndiri for her hampers and gifts..hehe..kelakar sgt..budget i ni pro jer..haha..arnd 2 am i insisted ibu watch PS.I LOVE U with me..i cried gila..ibu cm selamber je..tp i knew she cried at certain scenes..haih...da 3 kali tgk muvie tu pn i still nanges beriya..we slept at 4am..and i bgn lmbt gler..kul11.30am..fuuuhh..ngamok ibu coz ktorg lmbt nk visit fadhli at ALAM SHAH..huhu..took Aness along wit me since dia stay umah uncle dia..so she spent a nit at my hostel..br je balik td..hehe..best lah weekend nih =D

I want a VITARA!

Thursday, July 16, 2009 at 7/16/2009 06:21:00 PM

ini yg i ske tuuu...







gooorrrrrrshh!!!..there was a day(x igt bile)....i was walking bck to hostel...then..i saw IT...IT was so handsome!!!..i immediately fell in love at first site..who knws love at first site cud be real...bila balik..i just cnt stop thinking of IT...i came to me..just like dat..in the middle of nowhere..i blurted out ''I WANT A VITARA!''...damn it feels good to say dat..d whole nite i stayed up til 4am...googling for a VITARA...i seriously want one!!..check under second hand cars..i found it...still onsale by a chinese guy...siap save gamba lg...ari u i told ayah..but he sort of..masuk telinga kanan kuar telinga kiri...haih...y wont he take me seriously??...anyways...i imagined my new car in bright red..or extremely hot purplish maroon...haihssss pure howtness!!!


Dianne will stop man-hunting!

Monday, July 13, 2009 at 7/13/2009 01:37:00 PM
Last nite i made a new resolution...im gonna stop finding love..and let it come slowly..since small i dreamt of having a fairytale love story...since i found out dat its all bulls***..i decided to turn a NEW chapter..im going single and i dun care!!..muahaha..NO more flirting..NO more checking out guys...im gonna focus more on studies..

today is my first day of repenting..im also trying to curb my appetite of swearing..during math class td..i was focused and determined..it felt really good..i finally understnd wat im learning(forgve me prof.)...and made new friends wit d nerds...cool nerds..i neglected those stares n smiles..n i was a changed person..i felt it...i was on d ground!...im gonna be a bookworm sket..da buat deal ngan gigon mlm td not to go o9 til after 11.30pm..gotta score dis 1st sem to make an impression to my parents..haihssss..LOVE THE NEW ME!!

im hurt

Sunday, July 12, 2009 at 7/12/2009 02:57:00 PM
im so hurt by their(men/boys/ guys...) immediate judgement of who i am..am i dat transparent??..and GOD has been giving me dugaan yg byk all at d same time..im taking things positive..coz the more God gives u dugaan, the more He loves u..just kelmarin, perverts tried to invade my privacy..yesterday, a jerk tricked me into one of his stupid games..

dis was yesterday's story..i went to TS to meet up wit a bunch of matrx friends..we were happ to see each other..but wat excited me was i met my crush..the one i eyed before hooking up wit faizal..he was so nice to me yesterday..paid fr my lunch n train tickets..i agree to separate wit the crowd n joined him to watch ice age tgether..my mistake was..i knew he had a gf..but he told me it wsnt going so well since they hv been into a lot of arguemnts lately..when he said dat, hati ku berbunga2..so we walked tgether smlm..talked alot..avoid matrx crowd..unexpectedly he hold my hands..smiled..my God was i dreaming????..rupenye tidak coz bila check my wallet,sy benar2 tiada duit!!..so ptg tu, he walked me bck to lrt sttn..he kissed my forehead!!!!!! OMG..OMG..OMG!!.........i almost pengsan...Ya Allah..x dpt ku halang perkara itu!..i was blushing n smiling all the way bck to cyber..tday, dis morning arnd 8 am..he texted..''Dayan, miss u!''..haihhhhhh.....suke nye hati ini.......i cm teringat zaman2 berpacaran dlu..tp i didnt reply coz ngantok sgt..at 11.00am..after bangun..i called him..niat dlm hati nk ckp sorry coz x reply msg..tp when he picked up..i x sempat ckp pe2 lg..he said "Eer..dayan i ngan awek i ni..jgn call or msg tau..t if i msg dulu baru u can reply k.."..i quickly ended the call..almost campak my phone..nasib bek i was still waras...WTF!!!...my goodness!.. mamat tu mmg x tau nk appreciate seorang perempuan lah..samapi hati dia..dia ingat i ni perempuan simpanan dia ke????....dah la eja my name salah..its D.I.A.N.N.E!!!!!!!!NOT DAYAN!!!!!!!!!!!!Ya Allah..dugaan jenis apakah ini??..i was stoned skejap..lost of words to describe hw i felt at dat moment..hanya Tuhan yg memahami isi hati ku ini.................................................................................

fuck off assholes!!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009 at 7/11/2009 12:45:00 AM
shit! i just dun understand guys who just have the word 'sex' on their minds...no..no..dun get me wrong i dun mind jokes abt sex..i mean its normal rite..d ones dat are not normal is when they say ''shit i feel so horny talking to u like dis''...duurhhh...WHAT THE FUCK!!!..gile pe...hv some respect larh..im a girl..n then if i say no...automatic jd ''erm..oh i bz la, gtg la..bye''..babi gle..diorg igt i ni pe..pemuas nafsu mereka?? i've got my own pride n dignity k! and ada gk yg budget dia hot n cute(mmg pn) leh lg ckp ''show me sumtin hot''...''g la tukar baju yg lagi sexy''..buzz off fuckers!!!!i may not be the angelic type but im also not satan's daughter! gosh!! im just freaking pissed rite nw!! a.khairul kata just lay it off, they are assholes..mmg pn! ASSHOLES!!

kenapa?

Friday, July 10, 2009 at 7/10/2009 01:56:00 PM
i've got questions yg sgt mencelaru fikiran ini..

kenapa guys susah sgt nk paham perempuan?
kalau permpuan tu da merajuk..pujuk lah! bukan diam kn diri tggu girl tu cool off!

kenapa org yg beriya berkenalan tetapi tiada susulan?
amek phne number,cll tengah2 mlm..tp bila jmpa wat bodo..siyal!

why do we love someone so much tp we let go ef them?
...............

kenapa perempuan ske sgt shopping?
Gorrrrrrssh! nmpk ini, nak, nampak itu,nk...x leh nk kawal perasaan betol..

kenapa sesetengah lelaki kene tggu perempuan approach?
depa ingt pompuan ni apa?? x gentlemen lgsg..budget pemalu la sgt, hot la sgt..sialan..

why do guys just dont get it?
senyuman berbalas mesra..rajin txtg..dicari bila perlu..x sengaja manja..durrhh...hw can girls make it more obvious?? its freaking obvious dat we da fall head over heels for u! assholes!

kenapa parents susah nk faham perbelanjaan anak?
kami bukan shopping semata2..kne hidup..makan minum..photostat..duit tol,minyak..bla..bla..

kenapa org yg kita suka x semestinye suka kita balik?
haihhssssssssssssssssssss..........................melainkn dia da ada gf

kenapa aku ni m
alas sgt?
ermm..x tau cne explain..pnjg sgt...malas

kenapa kita rindu org yang x rindu kita?
igt senang ke nk kawal perasaan ini...

kenapa ego lelaki ini tinggi sgt?
kalau dah rndu tu msg je la! x payah la cover2..

kenapa oleh kerana seorg jantan, persahabatan terabai?
i've seen dis happen many times..unconciously been thru it..babi

kenapa mostly lelaki hot2 gay dan perempuan cun2 lesbian?
cant u just stick to fitrah alam? kesian lelaki dan perempuan normal di luar sana..

kenapa lelaki suka perempuan hot2 ,keding n cun2 je?
kalau hensem gk x pe la kot..ni muka cm tongkang pecah..ada hati...kata cinta itu buta!


hmmmmmmmmmm....itu la yg mengganggu fikiran i skg..kenapa la i ni byk berfikir?

tolong lah dun make it worse!

Monday, July 6, 2009 at 7/06/2009 04:23:00 PM
As usual i wud start my day by getting up early..go to class..blaja2..then balik..then lepak2..trying to be as bz so i cn forget all my probs..tp...........today i unexpectedlt recieved a msg fr an unknown number..it wrote "Ta mkn buah ok gk syg tp jgn lak nt mkn durian campur rmbutan lg ye syg..Luv u ta u r my evryting syg. Cnt live witout u by my side. Mis u a lot 2" .. i was like WTF????? mamat nih salah antar msg..babi..i replied saying dat dia salah num..he said sorry..tp still!!! ur sorry wont mend my broken heart! Ow My Gosh! Those are d words i've been wanting to hear n yet i recieve it frm an unknown yg tersilap hantar msg!!!...aaaaaaarrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

tetibe hr ni cm photogenic

Sunday, July 5, 2009 at 7/05/2009 09:29:00 PM



sumpah i love dis pics..............................!!!!!

im not alone..im just lonely

at 7/05/2009 12:30:00 AM
everytime i thot i got over it..i just dont..only i make myself believe dat it is over..but its too bitter to swallow..ppl tell me i must move on..i shud n i must..only dat im still hurt..and its as if it wont go away..we cnt just erase memories..it stays..but we do have a choice..to let go is one of it..but y cant i seem to be doing so?..y is it haunting my life?..maybe its not about 'him'...but d memories i had with 'him'..i knw i da wrote a blog to burry my memories..its not working as hw it shud..there are some things i wish to only share with d special one..but i hv to keep it to myself fr nw..and its killing me not having the excitement of sharing..

dear GOD..please let me move on..please let me enjoy the sweetness of life around ppl who love n care fr me..give me the strength to deal with my past..to let go n to never look bck..

confused with myself or making me confuse?

Friday, July 3, 2009 at 7/03/2009 06:20:00 PM
gosh! br 2 mggu start kat MMU ni i da nk gatal..haihh..btw k.ellyne once told me..one day u'll hv a guy who will stare at u d way faizal stares at his crushes..and kemasinan mulut dia sgt benar..there's dis one guy i notice..he stares..but not the freaky stare..just myGod-she's-so-beautiful stare( mak aih perasan lak ak nih..) tp seriously..we hv just started being friends..he, just like me hv just gone out of a first time relationshp..he's nice helped me thru dis loan im trying to get..tp i pn x tau..is dis right?..i mean we do not flirt or hang out tgether or wat..just chatting on ym n sometimes,if its important,he'l call..everything has a reason..loans,classes..cume during d serious biz, we sempat chat bout life,family n studies..which is considered no harm done..its just dat we both just got out of a serious relationshp..and.......if anything happens............aih ape la aku merepek nih..adoyai..i shud be moving on..but not dis fast....takot...cuak.....tp suke...gedik siyal aku nih!

uurghhh...

at 7/03/2009 02:39:00 PM
tadi i got scolded by ayah.....in front of everyone!!!!!!!!!!! malu hell..the reason was coz i didnt photostat a copy of my borang MARA....aihhhhh...............feeling so fucked up rite nw!!

let memories be barried in this blog..

Thursday, July 2, 2009 at 7/02/2009 07:34:00 PM



some people say 'dun cry becoz its over but smile coz it happened' n dats exactly wat im gonna do!..tday i'll write all d fun n sweet moments i had wit him n bury it in dis post and to move on n never look bck..

i remembered the first time we met, we hvg our audition fr KAKOM..i remembered u as a great dancer..we introduced ourselves..u str8 clled me dianne..it was as if u knw me alrdy..i really wanted to b ur fren..when i see u being bullied in d lecture hall i spoke to myself ''rasa cm nk dia duk sbelah me je''..we became gud friends after dat..evry where we go it was Faizal n Dianne..we were best friends..we'd play while d lecturer is talking..and i always bck u up bila u escape class..''diyana! faizal mana??'' haih..dat was common..then one day u didnt cme for a week,,i was freakn worried..i called so many times, at last u answered..u were crying..u told me ur mom was sick..i cnt help but to feel sorrry fr u..tears strolled dwn my eyes..u asked y i was crying i said ''if u quit, i nk kawan ngan spe?''...u stopped crying n pujuk me not to cry..we ended up laughing tgether..ad lak one day pn.zuraidah clled me to her cubicle..i da cuak gle..my quiz terok sgt ke??? tau x wat she said? she asked me ''npe result faizal teruk sgt nih??'' '' mana sy tau ckgu..'' ''x pernah2 dia dpt C n D ni..dia ok x?''..gosh! i didnt knw u were so smart in Chem..u nvr told me bout ur results.. to look bck..i nvr thot we could go dis far..we were best friends..tp lama2 i just cudnt live without u..not hearing ur voice fr a day would kill me..i started to flirt wit u..u were freaked out, u bcked urself away frm me..i understood well..u werent ready..feeling confused n unsure ..u asked me y am i treating u so nice..i told u i liked u,more than just a friend..u cried..i knw y u were crying..u were scared..still hurt by ur past..after we declared ourselves as a couple..u sang me a song thru d phne UNBREAKABLE by Westlife..we officially made it our song..
after a huge one month break up due to stupid reasons...we got bck tgether..just in time fr ur bday..i took u out fr an outing..we watched our 1st mvie tgether THE INTERNATIONAL..dat was d first time u reached out to hold my hands..i was touched..our relationshp grew stronger..i still hv the imagination of staring into ur eyes..frm JJ to matrx,in the bus..i looked at u without hesitation, just to take a memory picture of u.. u had beautiful pair of eyes,batting lashes..blushed by my action..u turned away..i bought u a sweater fr ur bday..it was brown wit a checkered hood

b4 exm..ada KAKOM nye dnnr..we had a small fight..i clled u BABI..i werent mad..instead u gave me a white flower..it was vry sweet..

we used to exchange notes n posters..there was one letter u gave me b4 matrx ended..the end of the letter had a signature with words after it it says FAIZAL SAYANG DIYANA..i still keep it..

after matrx..we were apart fr one month..lastly u cme to kl fr ur interview..after ur intrvw..i insisted u datang ts coz i was there..when i saw u i shouted ur name n ran to hug u..i rindu u sgt2 time tu i wasnt thnkg..heh..on the way bck u gave me ur first kiss on d cheek in the monorail in front of my frens..i was lost of words..it was unusual..i felt so loved there was a time u spent a nite at my place..ibu wasnt feeling well so we watched Lipstick Jungle..dat nite we spend the nite in each other arms..i felt so warm n secured.. i really wanted to stay like dat frever..
before i sleep i waited fr u to sleep 1st so i cn watch u sleep...dimmed lights..sweet songs by Fern..a man i was inlove with in my arms and me in his..the atmosphere was just perfect..waking up to u beside me was beyond my expectation..

we shared such wonderful memories together..i will always remember talking to u on d phne fr hours til my bills shoot up.. having great laughs when u try to cheer me up, u always had some tricks up ur sleeves to keep me frm being mad at u..ur whispers of i love u in my ears..ur hug when i cry..ur kisses when we're tgher..i wud call 8 gorgeous guys on campus but it can nvr compare it wit a 5 mins phne call wit u.. or when we eat at fast food restaurants, u wud asingkn d tomato sos fr me..it was very sweet..u wud also be my financial consultant so i wont spend too much and if i get scolded by ayah i'd call u n whine abt it.. but dat was dulu..nw i have to learn to let go..moving on might not be easy but i stil hv to go thru it..let our memories stay here as it can never vanish frm our thoughts..

all i wanted in life was to love and be loved..goodbye sweet memories






girls weekend!!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009 at 7/01/2009 08:55:00 PM
last weekend, me, sha and aness had a girly girl outing..we had loads of fun..on fri nite aness spent the nite at my place..on sat morning we met sha at times square n went shopping!!..us being girls, we shopped like mad..i spent rm170 on a long cardigan,leggings,skinny jeans,a bag, t-shirts..it was really worth it..i didnt even feel guilty bout spending money(haih..kesian ayah) ..we jalan2 arnd BB...frm times square to sungei wang to Pavillion to KLCC ....mmg kurus abes..haha kidding..tp it was all shopping shopping shopping!!

on sunday pula, picked up wahie at kepong sttn,we went to IKEA ..shopping lg weh..then we go cyber, lepak at aness's crb at Seri Kembangan..we made sandwich n vegetable soup..hehe 4 new bibiks doing work..haha..we planned for a picnic in putrajaya after visiting fadhli n mirul in ALAM SHAH..while visiting them, sha told mirul dat she's going to US soon..mirul cried..they were so close to each other,ike real sibs.. if feeel sorry for mirul..he really needed someone to tke cre of him..so dat evening..me,sha,aness,wahie n ratna(aness's hsemate) went picnic infrnt of Putrajaya Mosque beside the lake..it ws awsome! byk pics taken but sha hasnt uploaded it yet..dat nit we go tgk 17AGAIN at Alamanda it was a midnite muvie..n when we got bck we were locked outside n our car inside..gila! all d doors were closed..ktorg 5 org je...we almost cried,i mean i dunno bout them but i almost cried..huhu..lastly ada cleaner bantu kami get our way in and get to the roof top to sha's car..sedeh gle..cm pe je..jalan sne jalan sini naik tangga turun balik..haih..wat an experience..i'l upload pics later k..muahxx

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