tolong lah dun make it worse!

Monday, July 6, 2009 at 7/06/2009 04:23:00 PM | Posted by dianne lamin
As usual i wud start my day by getting up early..go to class..blaja2..then balik..then lepak2..trying to be as bz so i cn forget all my probs..tp...........today i unexpectedlt recieved a msg fr an unknown number..it wrote "Ta mkn buah ok gk syg tp jgn lak nt mkn durian campur rmbutan lg ye syg..Luv u ta u r my evryting syg. Cnt live witout u by my side. Mis u a lot 2" .. i was like WTF????? mamat nih salah antar msg..babi..i replied saying dat dia salah num..he said sorry..tp still!!! ur sorry wont mend my broken heart! Ow My Gosh! Those are d words i've been wanting to hear n yet i recieve it frm an unknown yg tersilap hantar msg!!!...aaaaaaarrrrrrrrggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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tetibe hr ni cm photogenic

Sunday, July 5, 2009 at 7/05/2009 09:29:00 PM | Posted by dianne lamin



sumpah i love dis pics..............................!!!!!

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im not alone..im just lonely

at 7/05/2009 12:30:00 AM | Posted by dianne lamin
everytime i thot i got over it..i just dont..only i make myself believe dat it is over..but its too bitter to swallow..ppl tell me i must move on..i shud n i must..only dat im still hurt..and its as if it wont go away..we cnt just erase memories..it stays..but we do have a choice..to let go is one of it..but y cant i seem to be doing so?..y is it haunting my life?..maybe its not about 'him'...but d memories i had with 'him'..i knw i da wrote a blog to burry my memories..its not working as hw it shud..there are some things i wish to only share with d special one..but i hv to keep it to myself fr nw..and its killing me not having the excitement of sharing..

dear GOD..please let me move on..please let me enjoy the sweetness of life around ppl who love n care fr me..give me the strength to deal with my past..to let go n to never look bck..

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confused with myself or making me confuse?

Friday, July 3, 2009 at 7/03/2009 06:20:00 PM | Posted by dianne lamin
gosh! br 2 mggu start kat MMU ni i da nk gatal..haihh..btw k.ellyne once told me..one day u'll hv a guy who will stare at u d way faizal stares at his crushes..and kemasinan mulut dia sgt benar..there's dis one guy i notice..he stares..but not the freaky stare..just myGod-she's-so-beautiful stare( mak aih perasan lak ak nih..) tp seriously..we hv just started being friends..he, just like me hv just gone out of a first time relationshp..he's nice helped me thru dis loan im trying to get..tp i pn x tau..is dis right?..i mean we do not flirt or hang out tgether or wat..just chatting on ym n sometimes,if its important,he'l call..everything has a reason..loans,classes..cume during d serious biz, we sempat chat bout life,family n studies..which is considered no harm done..its just dat we both just got out of a serious relationshp..and.......if anything happens............aih ape la aku merepek nih..adoyai..i shud be moving on..but not dis fast....takot...cuak.....tp suke...gedik siyal aku nih!

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uurghhh...

at 7/03/2009 02:39:00 PM | Posted by dianne lamin
tadi i got scolded by ayah.....in front of everyone!!!!!!!!!!! malu hell..the reason was coz i didnt photostat a copy of my borang MARA....aihhhhh...............feeling so fucked up rite nw!!

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let memories be barried in this blog..

Thursday, July 2, 2009 at 7/02/2009 07:34:00 PM | Posted by dianne lamin



some people say 'dun cry becoz its over but smile coz it happened' n dats exactly wat im gonna do!..tday i'll write all d fun n sweet moments i had wit him n bury it in dis post and to move on n never look bck..

i remembered the first time we met, we hvg our audition fr KAKOM..i remembered u as a great dancer..we introduced ourselves..u str8 clled me dianne..it was as if u knw me alrdy..i really wanted to b ur fren..when i see u being bullied in d lecture hall i spoke to myself ''rasa cm nk dia duk sbelah me je''..we became gud friends after dat..evry where we go it was Faizal n Dianne..we were best friends..we'd play while d lecturer is talking..and i always bck u up bila u escape class..''diyana! faizal mana??'' haih..dat was common..then one day u didnt cme for a week,,i was freakn worried..i called so many times, at last u answered..u were crying..u told me ur mom was sick..i cnt help but to feel sorrry fr u..tears strolled dwn my eyes..u asked y i was crying i said ''if u quit, i nk kawan ngan spe?''...u stopped crying n pujuk me not to cry..we ended up laughing tgether..ad lak one day pn.zuraidah clled me to her cubicle..i da cuak gle..my quiz terok sgt ke??? tau x wat she said? she asked me ''npe result faizal teruk sgt nih??'' '' mana sy tau ckgu..'' ''x pernah2 dia dpt C n D ni..dia ok x?''..gosh! i didnt knw u were so smart in Chem..u nvr told me bout ur results.. to look bck..i nvr thot we could go dis far..we were best friends..tp lama2 i just cudnt live without u..not hearing ur voice fr a day would kill me..i started to flirt wit u..u were freaked out, u bcked urself away frm me..i understood well..u werent ready..feeling confused n unsure ..u asked me y am i treating u so nice..i told u i liked u,more than just a friend..u cried..i knw y u were crying..u were scared..still hurt by ur past..after we declared ourselves as a couple..u sang me a song thru d phne UNBREAKABLE by Westlife..we officially made it our song..
after a huge one month break up due to stupid reasons...we got bck tgether..just in time fr ur bday..i took u out fr an outing..we watched our 1st mvie tgether THE INTERNATIONAL..dat was d first time u reached out to hold my hands..i was touched..our relationshp grew stronger..i still hv the imagination of staring into ur eyes..frm JJ to matrx,in the bus..i looked at u without hesitation, just to take a memory picture of u.. u had beautiful pair of eyes,batting lashes..blushed by my action..u turned away..i bought u a sweater fr ur bday..it was brown wit a checkered hood

b4 exm..ada KAKOM nye dnnr..we had a small fight..i clled u BABI..i werent mad..instead u gave me a white flower..it was vry sweet..

we used to exchange notes n posters..there was one letter u gave me b4 matrx ended..the end of the letter had a signature with words after it it says FAIZAL SAYANG DIYANA..i still keep it..

after matrx..we were apart fr one month..lastly u cme to kl fr ur interview..after ur intrvw..i insisted u datang ts coz i was there..when i saw u i shouted ur name n ran to hug u..i rindu u sgt2 time tu i wasnt thnkg..heh..on the way bck u gave me ur first kiss on d cheek in the monorail in front of my frens..i was lost of words..it was unusual..i felt so loved there was a time u spent a nite at my place..ibu wasnt feeling well so we watched Lipstick Jungle..dat nite we spend the nite in each other arms..i felt so warm n secured.. i really wanted to stay like dat frever..before i sleep i waited fr u to sleep 1st so i cn watch u sleep...dimmed lights..sweet songs by Fern..a man i was inlove with in my arms and me in his..the atmosphere was just perfect..waking up to u beside me was beyond my expectation..

we shared such wonderful memories together..i will always remember talking to u on d phne fr hours til my bills shoot up.. having great laughs when u try to cheer me up, u always had some tricks up ur sleeves to keep me frm being mad at u..ur whispers of i love u in my ears..ur hug when i cry..ur kisses when we're tgher..i wud call 8 gorgeous guys on campus but it can nvr compare it wit a 5 mins phne call wit u.. or when we eat at fast food restaurants, u wud asingkn d tomato sos fr me..it was very sweet..u wud also be my financial consultant so i wont spend too much and if i get scolded by ayah i'd call u n whine abt it.. but dat was dulu..nw i have to learn to let go..moving on might not be easy but i stil hv to go thru it..let our memories stay here as it can never vanish frm our thoughts..

all i wanted in life was to love and be loved..goodbye sweet memories

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girls weekend!!

Wednesday, July 1, 2009 at 7/01/2009 08:55:00 PM | Posted by dianne lamin
last weekend, me, sha and aness had a girly girl outing..we had loads of fun..on fri nite aness spent the nite at my place..on sat morning we met sha at times square n went shopping!!..us being girls, we shopped like mad..i spent rm170 on a long cardigan,leggings,skinny jeans,a bag, t-shirts..it was really worth it..i didnt even feel guilty bout spending money(haih..kesian ayah) ..we jalan2 arnd BB...frm times square to sungei wang to Pavillion to KLCC ....mmg kurus abes..haha kidding..tp it was all shopping shopping shopping!!

on sunday pula, picked up wahie at kepong sttn,we went to IKEA ..shopping lg weh..then we go cyber, lepak at aness's crb at Seri Kembangan..we made sandwich n vegetable soup..hehe 4 new bibiks doing work..haha..we planned for a picnic in putrajaya after visiting fadhli n mirul in ALAM SHAH..while visiting them, sha told mirul dat she's going to US soon..mirul cried..they were so close to each other,ike real sibs.. if feeel sorry for mirul..he really needed someone to tke cre of him..so dat evening..me,sha,aness,wahie n ratna(aness's hsemate) went picnic infrnt of Putrajaya Mosque beside the lake..it ws awsome! byk pics taken but sha hasnt uploaded it yet..dat nit we go tgk 17AGAIN at Alamanda it was a midnite muvie..n when we got bck we were locked outside n our car inside..gila! all d doors were closed..ktorg 5 org je...we almost cried,i mean i dunno bout them but i almost cried..huhu..lastly ada cleaner bantu kami get our way in and get to the roof top to sha's car..sedeh gle..cm pe je..jalan sne jalan sini naik tangga turun balik..haih..wat an experience..i'l upload pics later k..muahxx

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