twisted love
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
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3/31/2010 07:13:00 AM
twisted love is basically kind of....twisted.haha.we like but we hate.we care but we dont.we miss but we ditch.we dont tell but we know.we text but we dun expect a reply.we show ourselves in public but we go play hide n seek.we talk but we curse each other more than we talk.we never ever say 'i love u'.it'll ruin the whole twisted thing.we dun camwhore.we spend time tgether but we'll forget abt it.we pay for each others' drink but we never buy each other anythg.we sleep tgether but we never go on a date.we hate the fact that there's a we in this twisted relationshp.we tend to keep quiet when we should say somethg.we kiss each other on the cheek but we never hold hands.we never say 'thank u' unless we mean it.we never really mean what we say.we never expect anythg from each other.we touch and we touch some more.we are not friends and we are not enemies.we are just two living beings stuck in a twisted relationshp. :D
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coz im strong enough
Monday, March 29, 2010
at
3/29/2010 06:59:00 AM
i know i am strong enough..
- to be content with myself
- to make me happy by my own
- to live my life to the fullest everyday
- to live for my future,guided by my past
- to be there when somebdy needs me
- to love the people around me
- to take challenges
- to be sad
- to cry for u
- to long for u
- to cling to u
- to let u go
and i prsy every single day for God to let me live this life under His Kerahmatan n Keberkatan.amin :)
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cant say i like u,but i do adore ur way of living
Monday, March 22, 2010
at
3/22/2010 05:22:00 AM
dear you,
haih.i feel like saying this to u personally.tp i cant.x mau u poyo lebih.and x mau u pk dianne poyo pulak.haha.i may mean nothing to u.but u definitely mean something to me.dianne pk, im just a girl yg u lepak with,malas nk layan kadang2,hanya cari bila perlu.but i dun really care.i prefer it that way.kadang2 la.kdg2 u annoy me jugk.esp when u reply my txt pendek2.hesh.tp to me, u r like a brother,a lover, a friend. i like to listen when u talk.its as if u had a long life befre and telling me ur experiences n such.padahal.sama je life u dgn org lain.cuma,maybe it came frm u.lain dari semua orang.u chill a lot.i mean really a lot.u dun care what other thinks.as long as u're fine with urself n get to move on with life.reminds me a lot of my dad.and to u, ur parents and ur academic are ur priorities.u play safe a lot.i can tell on how u handle things.be it academic,scandals and money.but u still get to mingle and not lose out on ur social life.u ignore me too much that some times i dun mind finding u.tho its not how im suppose to function.eh, tp jgn pk yg bukan2.im not inlove with u.but i feel like i need a person like u in my life.to sedarkn where i went wrong and what i shud do.like i said ,coz u chill.i still remember when u said "npe nk buat bnda senang jd complicated?".itu adalah benar.i'l hold on to that.so when u told me that our secret rendevous shud be stopped.i cm down.not because i dun get to do things with u *ada la sket sbenarnye*.but i'll miss listening to u.ur views.ur future plannings.just everything u want to do.i get a lot from 2-3 hours of spending time with u.hmm.i may be wrong in making u as an example in my life.tp i believe in what i believe.thank you so much for making me ur friend.i'll miss u.a lot.just hope soon we'll meet again.*hugs*
sincerely, Dianne.
haih.i feel like saying this to u personally.tp i cant.x mau u poyo lebih.and x mau u pk dianne poyo pulak.haha.i may mean nothing to u.but u definitely mean something to me.dianne pk, im just a girl yg u lepak with,malas nk layan kadang2,hanya cari bila perlu.but i dun really care.i prefer it that way.kadang2 la.kdg2 u annoy me jugk.esp when u reply my txt pendek2.hesh.tp to me, u r like a brother,a lover, a friend. i like to listen when u talk.its as if u had a long life befre and telling me ur experiences n such.padahal.sama je life u dgn org lain.cuma,maybe it came frm u.lain dari semua orang.u chill a lot.i mean really a lot.u dun care what other thinks.as long as u're fine with urself n get to move on with life.reminds me a lot of my dad.and to u, ur parents and ur academic are ur priorities.u play safe a lot.i can tell on how u handle things.be it academic,scandals and money.but u still get to mingle and not lose out on ur social life.u ignore me too much that some times i dun mind finding u.tho its not how im suppose to function.eh, tp jgn pk yg bukan2.im not inlove with u.but i feel like i need a person like u in my life.to sedarkn where i went wrong and what i shud do.like i said ,coz u chill.i still remember when u said "npe nk buat bnda senang jd complicated?".itu adalah benar.i'l hold on to that.so when u told me that our secret rendevous shud be stopped.i cm down.not because i dun get to do things with u *ada la sket sbenarnye*.but i'll miss listening to u.ur views.ur future plannings.just everything u want to do.i get a lot from 2-3 hours of spending time with u.hmm.i may be wrong in making u as an example in my life.tp i believe in what i believe.thank you so much for making me ur friend.i'll miss u.a lot.just hope soon we'll meet again.*hugs*
sincerely, Dianne.
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i miss being ms.nerd
Thursday, March 18, 2010
at
3/18/2010 06:51:00 AM
story of my life. searching for the truth.but it keeps avoiding me.haha.merepek.
haih....yes i do miss being ms.nerd.at one point of my 20 years of living,i was devoted to my books.academic books,bukan comics.tp nw,dugaan dunia ini menggugat iman dan fikiran ku.adoyai! manusia mmg lemah. oh diri, kemana kau hanyut? dahulu,bukulah sumber kehidupanku.bukulah teman setiaku.x pernah mengecewakn ku.sentiasa ada walau dirinya tak diusik.walau dirinya di stack2 byk2.walau dirinya hanya dimenungkan.sungguh sabar buku2 ini dgnku.x pernah complain.x pernah marah.hanya menunggu aku.setia sungguh buku2 pada ku. cuma aku yg lalai. aku yg lupa.aku yg mengecewakn.tp mungkin,hari ini,esok atau lusa,akan ku jenguk2 dirimu wahai buku.akan ku temani malam mu.akan ku ceriakn siang mu.akan ku kembali pada hidup lama ku bersama mu. tunggulah aku buku.sesungguh nya hanya dirimu yg bisa mengubah pemikiran dan gaya hidupku. buku, sunyi pemikiran intelektualku tanpa mu. sekarang aku hanya boleh merepek tanpa isi.gamble je apa yg perlu.dahsyat perangai ku sekarang. usah khuatir buku. akan ku sianri hidup mu dgn kerajinan ku.tunggu lah aku buku.tunggu k.jgn lari :)
haih....yes i do miss being ms.nerd.at one point of my 20 years of living,i was devoted to my books.academic books,bukan comics.tp nw,dugaan dunia ini menggugat iman dan fikiran ku.adoyai! manusia mmg lemah. oh diri, kemana kau hanyut? dahulu,bukulah sumber kehidupanku.bukulah teman setiaku.x pernah mengecewakn ku.sentiasa ada walau dirinya tak diusik.walau dirinya di stack2 byk2.walau dirinya hanya dimenungkan.sungguh sabar buku2 ini dgnku.x pernah complain.x pernah marah.hanya menunggu aku.setia sungguh buku2 pada ku. cuma aku yg lalai. aku yg lupa.aku yg mengecewakn.tp mungkin,hari ini,esok atau lusa,akan ku jenguk2 dirimu wahai buku.akan ku temani malam mu.akan ku ceriakn siang mu.akan ku kembali pada hidup lama ku bersama mu. tunggulah aku buku.sesungguh nya hanya dirimu yg bisa mengubah pemikiran dan gaya hidupku. buku, sunyi pemikiran intelektualku tanpa mu. sekarang aku hanya boleh merepek tanpa isi.gamble je apa yg perlu.dahsyat perangai ku sekarang. usah khuatir buku. akan ku sianri hidup mu dgn kerajinan ku.tunggu lah aku buku.tunggu k.jgn lari :)
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buang masa!
Friday, March 5, 2010
at
3/05/2010 04:42:00 PM
hish! pissed gila! aku sakit perut nk mampus td..tinggal kan dunia ini utk berkejar2 ke tandas berhampiran. byk kekangan yg ku lalui.hujan.tutup tingkap.kunci ilang.tp aku sanggup bekerja mcm lipas kudung.tp setelah masuk tandas.kejap je.pastu dah! cis, aku bekerja keras utk seketul taik! buang masa betul :s
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soal hati dan keikhlasan
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
at
3/03/2010 04:53:00 PM
hati kecil ku berdetik, "bilakah engkau akan menjadi lebih serius dlm hidup mu?" "sehingga bilakah engkau akan manjahilkan diri mu ini?". ya Tuhan, maafkan daku atas segala dosa yg ku lakukan selama ini. iya, manusia berubah. ada yg baik ke jahat dan ada yg jahat ke baik. tetapi acapkali diri ini membuat kebaikan,beribu persoalan yg timbul. betulkah ini? ikhlaskah aku? teruk ke aku? baik ke aku? riak ke aku? dan byk lagi. tp selemah2 diri ini, aku juga tidak lupa akan asal usul ku.kot. aduhai. mengapa lah aku begitu dungu kala timbul nye soalan2 itu. gelap sgt kah hati ku utk membuat kebaikan. sesungguh nya duniawi ini satu ujian yg diberi Tuhan bagi menilai ketaatan kita kepadaNya. secara jujur, tidak ada alasan utk seorg manusia itu utk tidak membuat kebaikan. nak, seribu daya kan? ku akui aku sering alpa ketika diri menemui hiburan duniawi. tindakan ku salah. tp setelah membuat nya, aku terfikir sebentar, dan fikiran itu hilang tiba2 bak asap yg ditiup angin. teringat ku akan kata2 ustazah sewaktu ku bersekolah dulu "hidayah ini bukan dtg dgn sendiri.kita harus mencari hidayah Allah.sehingga Allah memberinya kepada kita. dan sekiranya kita tidak menggunakan hidayah itu dgn baik. nanti Allah tarik balik."
hmm.aku cuba.berjaya atau tidak,itu lain cerita. tapi aku akan cuba. bermula drpd perkara yg kecil ke yg besar.doakn yg terbaik utk ku ye rakan2. :)
hmm.aku cuba.berjaya atau tidak,itu lain cerita. tapi aku akan cuba. bermula drpd perkara yg kecil ke yg besar.doakn yg terbaik utk ku ye rakan2. :)
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