dianne, r u afraid of being alone?
Saturday, May 1, 2010
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5/01/2010 08:35:00 PM
wah! i myself have never dare to ask myself this.coz sometimes we wish not to know the truth in our lives.somehw there's a friend out there who cares about my being asked me this a few days ago.i was quite dumbfounded there.dont really knw how to answer the q.tho did thought abt it but nvr cared to prolong the thoughts. the answer to this q might be the reason for my tears all this while.my greatest fear.the fear of being lonely.being alone and being lonely is two big difference.alone is when u sit in ur room sorg2.be it ur roomate balik or ur family sume da masuk tdur.but being lonely.MYGOSH! typing the word itself scares me.lonely is when u're alone and u have no one to turn to.ur world fills itself with emptiness.i had my years of being lonely time skolah rendah dulu.never had that many friends.dun even wish to have pn.ala2 cm dlm muvie,i'd be in the nerds group time skola.haha.but as i grow up, i am more exposed to the world.finally i know how the world spins. and life wasnt that boring.i make new friends each day.but most of the time i blew the new bonds.guess im just not a long-term kinda person.but i was never lonely or alone.i'd always have friends.but lightning strucked my fate.i once lost a person whom i thot meant the world to me.back then. i felt like dieing.i wasnt alone but i was lonely.yes, i do know how it feels to be lonely. but i cudnt blame anyone.so i blamed myself n promise not to make such stupid mistake like that.so to answer the q.no, im not afraid of being alone.but im afraid of feeling lonely.now.aness is leaving.sanie is leaving.azri is leaving.dayat is leaving.sol is leaving.thnk god reena is still arnd.and all my other friends :D thank u GOD for blessing me with such great friends :)
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leaving but please feel my presence. dont u worry, ill be watching.STALKING to be exact.ngeeee.
hugs!
btw,
"When someone leaves, it's because someone else is about to arrive." -Paulo Coelho (The Zahir)
come to think of it, most of the names mentioned above are the ones you just met in ur life. whom u knew less than a year or maybe few months. see its proven good friends do exist, waiting to be found.so babe, chill. you being the sparkling diyana lamin, lonely is just hard to happen :)
wah nama saya :P
lonely kdg2 buka mata kita kasi tunjuk apa yg kita tak sedar kita ada. :)
puasa jom bukak sama2. ofis saya tutup awal. juga bole saho di 5AM fav spot.
aness : thats so true dear.thx so much.ily <3
hidayat : aik.puasa bilakah?5am fav spot.nice juga tu :D